What I am avoiding: Washing the kitchen floor, organizing cupboards, sorting through the large collection of empty glass jars that have gathered in the cupboard below my sink. Also, starting a good-for-you for dinner, which involves peeling a lot of vegetables and other time consuming tasks, meaning that it should have been started an hour ago if I'm really serious about eating dinner at a reasonable hour. Oh, and writing this post.
How I'm avoiding it: The internets, of course where I discovered this poster, this t-shirt and this video, just to stay with our food-theme. Making a cup of tea, having a snack. Doing the dishes! (Strange form of procrastination, I know, but the small task of getting the dishes done is actually a sneaky way of convincing myself that I'm not a total slacker.) Reading this book, taking the above picture. A nap, of course. And a walk in the neighborhood where I stopped to watch the new ice-cream place being constructed and unexpectedly met a friend while standing on line for coffee.
How it all worked out: Well, I read an interesting book and found a fun t-shirt! And this post seems to be almost done. But also I learned to be careful about the idea of setting up tasks and goals as the ultimate organizer of my life. I know that this is considered the grown-up thing to do, and in some ways it is. But I've learned that it can be a trap, too, and a sneaky way to insulate myself from my life, which is a lot more unpredictable and tied to wildness than I think. What happens when I'm not controlling my experience with my lists and accomplishments? What happens when I just let the afternoon open up and unfold around me?
The good-for-you dinner didn't get made today but it will probably get made tomorrow and the jars will eventually find their matching lids and really, the kitchen floor can go another week. Instead, I meandered through a whole array of sights and sensations and discovered the sweet freedom of an unplanned afternoon spent following my nose. I saw an old friend, which did my heart good. I discovered what trees are in bloom one block over and smelled the wonderful and strangely rural smell of compost and flowering sweet pea at the urban farm down the hill. I learned a little more about my camera and got lost in a book for an hour. The motive may have been procrastination but the day still offered merit and the unpredictable pleasures of accomplishing things not on your list.
Related: Weekend Meditation: Identity Crisis
(Image: Dana Velden)

Comments (14)
Very nicely written. *applauds*
This essay actually calmed me down.
Thanks!
sometimes meandering is the straightest way
an afternoon well-spent -- well done!
sometimes i feel like doing this,could relate to tis alot,..
It is amazing when you can let yourself be "human" and not judge it as something bad... Just to let yourself have the experience you are having. So much becomes possible. Thank you for reminding me of this.
I like to make long lists of tasks, but then I only pay the smallest amount of attention to the list. It helps me to remember things that I really want to get done, but I often decide that some tasks can wait for another day, or that other things need to come first, even if they are non-productive like taking a walk or reading blogs. The act of thinking through a list clarifies my options, even if I don't follow the list, I find.
“Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit”-- Henry Brooks Adams
"Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you can be violent and original in your work"-- Flaubert
I totally relate, plus found a new T shirt!
Thanks for this post! Puts things into perspective right now as I continue to procrastinate.
Having my own honey do list, I find stolen hours are welcome and much needed breaks from my predictable and often over-scheduled week. I often forget subtleties and nuances make up an important part of a happier existence and always feel more balanced and centered when little things like taking a different but longer route or listening to some new tunes. Humans were not meant to live regimented lives. Serendipity has its place.
I live by the words of Ellen Degeneres: "Procrastinate now. Don't put it off."
excellent post
Thank you for posting the book- I just bought it thanks to you! :)