Sometimes you just have to bake a cake. Right? Because it's been quite an emotional week, what with the very close election looming and the very big storm descending and Halloween/Día de los Muertos sending all sorts of shenanigans out into the world. And let's not forget to mention (in my neck of the woods at least) the Giants winning the World Series, complete with wildness in the streets and parades. Quite the roller coaster.
And that's just the wider world. In my own little life, I got to interview some big time chef heroes (gulp, stutter, swoon), caught a doozy of a cold complete with fog horn cough, and this morning I woke up to discover a spider the size of my palm calmly creeping across my duvet. So yeah, sometimes you just plant your feet on the kitchen floor, grab a mixing bowl and fill your head with nothing but a simple recipe and the sound of butter being smashed into sugar. Sometimes you just have to bake a cake.
And so I did and it was great, creaming the butter and sugar and then throwing in the egg. I went all unplugged, using an old wooden spoon and my girl power to whip that batter until it was smooth and shiny. I dumped in flour and peeled apples and greased the pan thickly with butter. I let the kitchen get all messy and dusted over with flour and apple peels and I dropped a half a jar of cinnamon on the floor but no worries! The cake finally made it into the oven and it smelled wonderful until, suddenly, it didn't and yes, in keeping with the roller coaster times I live in, I burnt that cake. But only just a little. (Actually, it has an appropriate Día de los Muertos kind of vibe.)
Still, I declare my cake making therapy a success. First, I got a little workout with the bowl and wooden spoon. Second, I got a CAKE from it all. Third, I got to MAKE that cake, as in I had a working oven and a working fridge full of ingredients and a working arm to mix it all up. Given what some folks are going through (and not just this week, of course) I'd say I had it made. What started out as a way to blow off some steam gradually settled into a quieter reflection on appreciation and staying grounded amongst all the toss and turmoil.

I put my cake on an appropriately black plate and sat there looking at it for a minute. I found myself wishing I could send that cake to any number of people and places. To the early Thanksgiving/mini-family reunion I was missing in Wisconsin. To the cold, hungry, and tired Sandy storm survivors and their relief workers. To my friends building a temple in India who were celebrating a birthday. To all the politicians and all the heroes and all the confused and troubled people just trying to find a way through.
I would say: Here. Please sit down and have a piece of cake. May it heal and comfort you. May it sweeten your tongue and remind you of what's really important. Whether you are cheering and celebrating or barely holding it together, may you know kindness and patience and may you remember that sometimes your deepest wisdom is your simple, everyday commonsense. So, here, let us lift our forks together and appreciate the tangled, messy, complicated, brilliant, wondrous business it is to occupy this planet together.
Let's just keep trying to not mess it up too much, OK?
Quote: "Whether we and our politicians know it or not, Nature is party to all our deals and decisions, and she has more votes, a longer memory, and a sterner sense of justice than we do." - Wendell Berry
Cake recipe: This one, only with apples not plums
How to help: Occupy Sandy
Synchronicity: Tara was also baking an apple cake (hers has frosting!)
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Oh, Dana, this is another very beautiful post from you. Thank you so much for it and thank you to everyone on AT for your concern about people and places touched by the hurricane.
Refreshing as always.
Deeply moving. And I had thought about it yesterday, but today, I shall bake a cake. Thank you, Dana!
I made a cake yesterday, too! What a great feeling to rest while it was baking and then share it with someone I love afterwards.... It was the clementine and almond syrup cake from Ottolenghi's new cookbook Jerusalem.... Delicious and very bright from all the citrus!
I can't tell you how much I look forward to your weekend meditations... Living alone in NYC 3000 miles away from my friends and family, I have created MANY cakes such as this one.
Thank you for this treat every Sunday morning, it gives me something to wake up for, drink tea and contemplate how lucky I am even when times are hard.
Yes! Given the fact that I am so blessed to have survived the frankenstorm wonderfully unscathed, I have been running around this week like a chicken with my head cut off, so today, since it has suddenly become quite cold, I am going to make cupcakes and try out a recipe for our annual Holiday Party! I think that some chocolate and buttery frosting should make everything seem better!
Thanks Dana...
Sometimes it's good to "hide out" in something long enough for the mood or tightness to loosen up. It's not running away so much as taking a metaphorical really deep breath.
HUGS
Dana, this is really beautiful. Thanks for writing it.
Cooking is my go-to stress reliever too!
So beautiful!
I did this yesterday. A friend and I who both needed it baked pumpkin challah bread pudding for friends and a cranberry pear cake (the cranberry cake thekitchn posted a few years ago, plus pears) for ourselves. The kitchen was spotless, courtesy of my amazing betrothed. Love it when he does that.
More cooking tomorrow, but today a break to go flea marketing and think up tasty dog treats for the pup.
Me too! It can de physically exhausting (depending on how many hours you're stuck in the kitchen!) but such a stress reliever at the same time!!
Hey Daignan...YOUR little post helped me! Thank you :)
I'm awaiting some biopsy results and to say I'm consumed with worry would be an understatement. Today I needed to bake banana bread for my lunches for the week ahead. It was very relaxing and mind consuming for something other than the looming results.
I baked some pumpkin donut muffins yesterday for *exactly* these reasons. Thanks, Dana.
Oh, @Margi, I wish you lots of blessings and good health.
Dana: Thank you, as always, for your beautiful words. They were very much needed today.
Margi: I'm sending good thoughts your way. Take care.
A great post accompanied by a beautiful cake!
At least the election is finally over ~ we we're very happy to wake up to the good news this morning in France!
Nice comment miss nita : )
Thanks LauraJane, I got an "all clear" for my doctor on Wednesday!!
Thank you onebravegirl. I got a clean result on Wednesday!